Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The Day I Died in The Jungle


I'll never forget this day.

The torrential morning downpour had just ended. The jungle was steaming hot, no other way to describe it. Humidity probably 99%, temp not far behind. Great weather for throwing back a few margaritas on a Mexican beach, but for humping around the jungle? Not so much. Always thirsty. And tired. Not sleeping well at all, attention was not what it should be. And for some reason we all sensed that some bad shit was going to happen today. Sometimes you just know.

We were on patrol looking for "Charlie". In reality we were just a bunch of kids, albeit heavily armed kids, just trying to stay alive until we could come home.

Damn it's hot, fatigues soaked through from sweat and rain. We came to an open and fully exposed clearing, about the length of a football field. Really not good to be out in the open so we skirted around it to the north side off the high ground. Of course this now put us in mud that came over the tops of our boots. Deep mud that made a loud sucking sound every time you picked up your foot. Damn helmet not adjusted right and it's sliding around my helmet liner which is soaked with sweat. Continually pushing it up so I could see the top of the treeline. Just another fun day in paradise.

I was in the third position. There were 10 of us. I remember Anderson was on point. Don't remember who was between me and Andy. We're now out of the mud in a short clearing on the edge of the real jungle. Now walking through elephant grass, waist high and rajor sharp. Elephant grass. This is also where the Fer De Lance hangs. One more new worry. The Fer De Lance, one of the worlds largest and most poisonous snakes. Nocturnal hunter, sleeps in elephant grass during the day. Step on one and they usually get very pissed and you can get very dead in a matter of minutes. I would say pick your poison - big poisonous snakes, booby traps, land mines or snipers. Like I said, just another fun day in the damn hot tropical sun.


Bungle in The Jungle

At the edge of the elephant grass loomed the real jungle. Triple canopy, very dark, only partially filtered light gets in making everything blend together, heat is trapped and reflected making it like a sauna.

Anderson is at the treeline about to head in. No one talking. Lots of animal chatter from the birds and monkeys announcing our arrival. Who else is listening, I wonder. Attention is now fully focused, senses on high alert. I can be tired later, I figure. Adrenaline kicking in, natures way. Fight or flight. Unfortunately flight right now is not an option although I don't really fancy the fight option either. Very calm though. I remember everything about that day.

Trying not to sound like a herd of elephants as we make our way into the heart of the jungle. There's what appears to be a well worn trail to our right but we stay off it, great place for booby traps and mines they told us. Right. Yesterday a patrol from Delta Company got nailed by traps and mines just off the trail. Damned if you do, damned if you don't, now became, killed if you do, killed if you don't.

For some reason the jungle is now strangely quiet as we make our way into the towering triple canopy. We're half on and half off the trail. One slow step at a time. The ultimate multi tasking - keep an eye out in the trees for snipers who are fully camoflauged and perfectly still; be alert for any movement or unusual animal behavior; keep an eye on the ground ahead of you for trip wires made of mono-filament fishing line that is almost invisible in the filtered light of the jungle; look for signs of freshly moved dirt or grass that seem out of place since there's probably  a freshly planted mine or trap there; and finally watch Anderson on point for hand signals. Screw up and you're going to have one of the worst days of your life.

Welcome to the Jungle, we've got fun and games

Even more hot and humid inside this hell hole jungle now. No breeze. Still no sounds, it's completely silent. Something's going down.

A muffled "POP". I look up and see Anderson suddenly stand up and turn around with a puzzled look on his face. Shit, something's wrong. As taught, I move into the brush and crouch down. Another muffled "POP" and I feel a sharp stinging pain in the back of my right hand. Another "POP" and I feel the same pain on the right side of my neck. I'd been shot twice by an unseen sniper. Spurting blood from a pierced carotid artery, I bled out in a matter of seconds and died there in the jungle.

Then I hear a voice yelling in broken English

You're all dead, how does it feel ! 

What a strange thing for God to be saying I thought to myself and I certainly didn't expect God to have a latin accent. But it wasn't God yelling at us, it was First Sgt. Navarra, although at times he thought he was God.

Yes, I had been shot but not with an AK47, but with a pellet from a high powered air rifle.

No, I wasn't spurting blood, but sported two red welts on my hand and neck.

No, this didn't happen in Vietnam, but in the jungles of Panama where we had just completed a daylight patrol exercise as part of our three week Jungle School training which was required before the real thing in Vietnam.

Yes, our entire patrol had all been shot and killed, this time by the training staff with pellet guns. Next time?

Yes, I had orders to be in Vietnam in 3 weeks as an Infantry Platoon Leader. In three weeks this would not be a training exercise.

The reality of my situation had finally sunk in.




Friday, January 22, 2010

What The Hell Were You Thinking?

There are some times, in fact probably many times, when it's best to just STFU and don't get caught up in the emotion of what's going on around you since you probably aren't going to change a damn thing by spouting off and will probably feel really bad about it afterwards. And your big mouth could literally get you killed. Mine damn near did, really. You'd think that I would have learned from this, but in the years since it happened, old motormouth still has had a few shining moments of stupidity. But none like what happened on that Tuesday morning on May 5, 1970. Even now as I think back, my inner voice is saying, "what the hell were you thinking?" I wasn't.



I attended the Infantry Officers Basic Class (IOBC) at Fort Benning, Georgia, from September 1969 to December 1969. Most of us were then immediately assigned to stateside duty at a Basic Training Army base for around 6 months and then were shipped off to Vietnam. Stateside duty involved either being a training officer or an instructor. If you were a training officer you were with a company of trainees going through the 8 weeks of basic training with them, everything they did, you did. Long days. The trainees were made up of draftees, guys who enlisted, reservist weekend warriors and National Guardsmen. But basically if you were a training officer, your main job was to stay out of the way of the Drill Instructors and let them do their thing. The only thing the DIs hated more than a trainee was a 2nd Lt. straight out of Benning who they had to address as "Sir".



A much better job was being a rifle range instructor. A lot more fun and you got to fire up all of the unused ammo at the end of the day rather than account for it and fill out all the return paperwork. Put the old M-16 on rock n' roll and hang on. Especially fun when you did the night fire exercises and you could light up the range, and maybe the adjoining town, with tracers. As the range OIC (Officer in Charge), you really didn't like to see the tracers going down range at a 45 degree angle. But I digress.

So of course I was assigned to Fort Lewis, WA, as a training officer where I humped around the wet and cold of Washington state with the trainess, I mean, maggots, as the DIs called them. Hated it. Didn't like the job or the weather. I really wanted to be at Fort Ord just outside of Monterey, CA. This is where my home was, San Jose about 30 miles away.  However with almost obsessive determination, I managed to finagle a transfer to Ft. Ord. Very unusual for the Army grant it, but when I told a Major at HQ in DC that I'd pay for all my relocation expenses, leave Ft.Lewis on a Friday after work and show up for duty at Ft. Ord the following Monday morning, he said OK, cut my orders and gave me the name of the unit at Ft. Ord to report to at 0730hrs on Monday.

I'd done the impossible, California here I come. Loaded up the MGB and headed down Route 5 right after work on Friday, January 31, 1970. Next stop, Ft. Ord and Monterey Bay.




I've found that for the most part, when you do something out of the ordinary in any big bureaucracy, it usually throws the proverbial wrench into the works. Here's an example. I had an ex who would always order at McDonald's what they refered to as "special grills". Instead of ordering from the set menu, you tell the usually unintelligible voice in the box what you'd like instead. Much healthier that way, right? Anyway, instead of a regular old quarter pounder, she'd order a quarter pounder with just mustard and pickle. Guaranteed to really fuck up the old system. Guaranteed to get us a little red numbered cone to put on the roof of the car while we were banished to the outer regions of the parking lot to await the special delivery of our culinary creation.You could count on a 10 minute wait, and it usually wasn't right even when it did show up.

Same with the Army.




When I showed up at Ft. Ord at 0730 on Monday morning, February 2, 1970, they of course weren't expecting me. I did have a copy of my orders so they knew it was official. I sat and waited most of the morning. Only thing missing was a small red numbered cone on my head. Finally a Captain motions me to come over to his desk.

Well Lt. Wise, we weren't expecting you.

Really? How odd.

He continued . . . .

But since you're here, do you want to be a basic training officer or do you want to join the Committee Group and be an instructor.

Wow


So I became the OIC of Range 18. Oh yes, Range 18 was one of the beach ranges. Job on the beach teaching kids how to shoot an M-16. Like I said, sweet duty. Later I arranged to trade ranges with another lieutenant. I was now the OIC at range 37. This was the fun range where we blasted of all the tracers at the end of the day which was usually around midnight. We also conducted daylight training, so a typical day lasted 18 hours. Since these were long days even by Army standards, there were two OICs who worked this range every other day. Oh yes, weekends were off as well. So one week I worked 2 days and the next week 3 days. Always had a 3 day weekend. Good stateside duty.


Range 18

It was now May and a lot of my buddies who were with me in IOBC in October had already gotten their orders for Vietnam and were over there now. Even some in the class behind me were also now starting to get their orders. But nothing for me, which was just fine. Any day I expected to get the call. Then I finally figured it out what might have happened. By forcing the transfer to Ft. Ord,  I was out of synch with the system and flying under the radar. I was the Special Grill.

I had been an instructor at the rifle range for about three months when there was a little incident at Kent State.



The Kent State shootings, also known as the May 4 massacre or Kent-State massacre, occurred at Kent State University in the city of Kent, Ohio, and involved the shooting of unarmed college students by members of the Ohio National Guard on Monday, May 4, 1970. The guardsmen fired 67 rounds over a period of 13 seconds, killing four students and wounding nine others, one of whom suffered permanent paralysis. Some of the students who were shot had been protesting against the American invasion of Cambodia, which President Richard Nixon announced in a television address on April 30. Other students who were shot had been walking nearby or observing the protest from a distance.

There was a significant national response to the shootings: hundreds of universities, colleges, and high schools closed throughout the United States due to a student strike of four million students, and the event further divided the country, at an already socially contentious time, about the role of the United States in the Vietnam War.

Monday after work, May 4th. Watching the 6 o'clock news with Walter Cronkite. Four students were shot and killed at Kent State by members of the Ohio National Guard. Lots of anger. What the hell is going on in this country. Rage against the machine.

Gotta get down to it
Soldiers are cutting us down
Should have been done long ago.
What if you knew her
And found her dead on the ground
How can you run when you know?

Tuesday morning May 5th driving to work to teach National Guardsmen how to shoot and kill, still really pissed off. Not good. Warning signs.

Now I'm standing on the platform in front of a new company of trainees who had just marched in. I usually started my class with some crude jokes or just read the sports page to them. The trainees and the DIs all liked this. Today I didn't. Today I heard myself say the following, unable to stop, an observor.

Good Morning Soldiers

GOOD MORNING SIR !

So how many of you out there are in the National Guard? Raise your hands.
OK, that's good. Now all of you who just raised your hand I want you to listen closely today because when you're called upon to shoot unarmed students, I want to make sure you hit them.

Silence. DIs staring at me.

My mouth totally disengaged from my brain. Fuck.

Taught the rest of the class without further comment. Damage done.

An hour later I was odered to report to the Colonel to explain what the hell I was doing. Reality of my stupidity sinking in. Colonel was pissed, I was contrite. Again, damage done.

Two months later my orders for Vietnam showed up. I was to report to Jungle School in Panama in October and in early November would deploy to Vietnam. This would also mean that they were sending me there with less than 12 months to go on active duty. A standard tour in Vietnam was 12 months. War was winding down and they're sending me with less than 12 months to go. Someone  really wanted me there.

Did my ill advised comment get me sent to Vietnam? Maybe, maybe not, but there's a good chance it did.

To die is to be a counterfeit, for he is but the counterfeit of
a man who hath not the life of a man; but to counterfeit dying,

when a man thereby liveth, is to be no counterfeit, but the true
and perfect image of life indeed. The better part of valor is
discretion, in the which better part I have sav'd my life.

Henry The Fourth, Part 1 Act 5, scene 4, 115–121